Sunday, June 22, 2008
9:31 AM
The weather is so cooling now and i slept for quite a long time.
I need cool weather to work. Cool weather to sleep. I don't mind moving to weather-cool countries.
Had plans with family to go ECP for some workout and family bonding but it rained.
A check with the weather station shows changi area to be having thunder storms. Not quite pleasant for any outings.
If you need any forcast on weather anywhere in singapore,
intranet.mssinet.gov.sg/nowcast/Today is sunday.. 22th of june. I read Azel's blog and she still thinks about us sometimes. While packing her stuff, she ran across our stuffs, the stuff i bought her. Thinking back, it does make me sad. The sour and heavy feeling started to come back. We were so perfect back then but she had to go away for studies. Somewhere not within my reach. She is such a smart girl with all the qualities that i would want in a girl. My worries for her has now been erased when i know how well she is doing now in her studies and by travelling around europe, she is one happy girl who has her dream come true. I wish her all the best in everything she do. Truely.
I have no belief in any particular religion but i do belive in one higher being. God. I'm a free thinker but still i look in HIS direction. I hate to say this but God has planned everything for us. I used to believe that everything is within our control and we choose our path. We fight for what we want but to a certain extend, because we are still the smallest figure in this entire vast universe.
If she had stayed in Singapore, would things not turn out this way?
If I had understand her of what she wants, would we not turn out this way?
If we had never started, we might be better off being good friends
But if we never started, I would never have felt the happiest times of my life.
Though she changed me from A to B, for the better, she pushed me back to hell after what i could not understand her doings.
So many what ifs.. there are too mani path for us to choose from and its so hard to choose the right path. But what we don't realised is, no matter what path we chose, they have the possiblity to be the best route of your life.
Everything ends with a reason. She is one i love dearly. She is now one happy girl with a good future ahead of her with a partner who i belive will treat her much better than i can.
All the best to her.
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Enough of the past and blah blah. The future is unknown and we will strive for it. NO doubt!
I met this wonderful girl during that double O night. She is like the kind of girl i like, like so long before i met her. Though we never spoke much.. Just when we are warming up with each other, i had to go. oh boy..
BUT
I have her contacts now. hehe.
A run through her Friendster shows something interesting. She has the same music in her profile as me. We both love that song by Bird and the Bee. We have the same movies that we like. Thats something for a start. But.. i'm tired of chasing after girls and all i want is to be alone now.
Its ironic why i felt this way. I gave up on finding the right one.
But at least... i'm friends with her now. =D
Cold Play's new album Viva La Vida is not bad. Wait till i get some server spce from Herman then i can upload all the good stuff up! Maybe Colin's sg server might be better. Hoho.
Listening to Lovers in Japan, Reign of Love.